Thank you everyone for tuning in to Episode 2 of Basketball Wives Season 4!  We are still in New York and I love it because my close friends and family are here.  Get ready because this blog is long…zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz…

To start off, I don’t want anyone to think that I was banging on Jennifer regarding the way she grew up.  The story that I told on the show about Jennifer’s Dad making airplanes and hearing the Porsche coming around the block is something that Jennifer would constantly bring up throughout the years of our previous friendship.  She always made it a point to remind us that she grew up wealthy and her dad had a Porsche.  In no way shape or form was I hating on her and I needed to make that clear.

My dad calls and I speak to him every week, we don’t see one another very much because we live in two different states and I am always traveling.  We are in the process of building our relationship and I know he feels bad about my younger years and not really being there, I am pretty much over it and looking to have him stay with me during the summer.

During filming with my sister, my brother-in-law (Anthony) happened to text me and he was crying saying that he will be at my wedding if it’s the last thing he does.  It’s tough because Anthony recently had surgery to remove the tumor and he ended up in the hospital again last week because they found more cancer in his intestine and stomach.  As much as I want to be positive all the time it’s really hard because I don’t know what’s going to happen.  He is always sick, he doesn’t have an appetite and he is going through a tough time.  I will be very happy if he makes my wedding day, but I am hoping that he will and I would really appreciate your prayers.

One thing that I would like to point out is that Jennifer has been around my brother-in-law and one of my niece’s since birth. Not one time, even when we were cool did she reach out to see how he was or how my family was doing.  I know that she and I aren’t cool, but if there were something tragic happening in her family, I would put this entire BS to the side and check on her.

You know what’s funny; the fact that Jennifer brought up my daughter is disturbing. I say this because Jennifer doesn’t know the half about being a mother…she isn’t one! Jennifer has been in my daughter’s life since Shaniece was six years old.  Recently, she saw my daughter in passing and didn’t say two words to her.  With that said, she needs to keep my daughter’s name out of her mouth and I am VERY serious about that.

Here we go again with Jennifer once again saying she and I don’t date the same type of guys.  Whether you are marrying an athlete or dating an athlete, you are still intimate with them right?  So, I still don’t understand.   *blank stare*  You aren’t making sense, how can you say you don’t date the same type of guys as me?!  Stop LYING.

On Jennifer saying that I need to speak to her in a respectful manner, I was VERY calm at the beginning of last week’s scene. How can I talk to her in a respectful manner when she is yelling?  I even told her to calm down.  How does she even expect me to accept or seem to believe her apology is sincere when she was constantly yelling at me?  I wasn’t even yelling like that and we ALL know how I can be. It truly baffles me that Jennifer can even say that I need to speak to her in a respectful manner when all the while she has been disrespecting me by talking about me publicly.  Even Shaunie and Tami could see that she doesn’t get it.

And about me being exempt from Jen’s life…no one is worried about Jenn she has been exempt from my life for a while. #BOOM

If anyone knows my Mom, she definitely wants to have the light especially on a big day like my wedding.  And for her to basically give Anthony the role of walking me down the aisle spoke VOLUMES.  I was really happy that she suggested the idea. As of now, I am not sure if Anthony will be able to walk me down the aisle.  He just came out of the hospital recently and I am hoping and praying that he makes it to that day.

No comment on Kenya’s videos…keep watching because I touch on that later. In regards to Suzie, I know she receives a lot of flack, but at the end of the day, the show wouldn’t work if it weren’t for Suzie.  Suzie is connected to everyone and whether she is messy or not, she is the reason why the show flows. You can be mad at me for saying that, but it’s the honest to God’s truth.

I find it funny that a lot of women deny and say they don’t have sex.  I remember Chad telling me that the majority of women he dated would always act like they were goody two shoes, didn’t have sex and always lied. He said one of the things he respected about me was my honesty.  We would always talk, compare stories and keep it one hundred.  Chad would rather hear about whom I have been with from my mouth versus hearing about it in the street. Just be honest ladies (you know who you are). *wink*

You know, I really think that acting is Royce’s calling, for some reason something within me tells me that.  Royce seems very passionate about acting and I think she will do very well.  Not to mention that her hair looked amazing on tonight’s show. Royce at one time judged me last season regarding Chad and I will not judge her for being with a different man this season.  However, I’m happy for her and wish her all the best.

People honestly thought my relationship with Chad was fake from day one and now I think they know it’s real.  Are we perfect? Absolutely not, however, we do love each other and are both focused on making this work. I would never involve my daughter nor would he involve his children in something that wasn’t real.

I am not condoning Chad for cheating; I am a realist as to the world we live.  When your relationship is high profile and publicized like mine, I don’t put anything past anyone.  Who is it to say that either one of us will eventually fall into that temptation one day?  We don’t know that.  My thing is, I want to take my wedding vows and say, we want this to be forever, but you never know.  Chad and I are open with communication, we talk all the time and he is a work in progress.  This is LIFE.  I am hoping that men and women both can relate to us because there will be temptation, but it takes a strong bond to defeat it.  I love Chad, my focus is him and vice-versa and we are going to do this thing and work it out.  A lot of times people say you shouldn’t be open with your dude and tell him what you have done in the past and vice-versa, but it works for us, he doesn’t judge me and I don’t judge him.  Nobody is perfect it is what it is.  I wasn’t looking for Chad, Chad came into my life on Twitter.

There are more people out there that want to see us fail than be successful.  There is an abundant amount of negativity and it isn’t easy, it has been a challenge, but this is my dude and I love him.

“Tighten Up”

Until next Monday my loves…



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